Pulled In Many Directions

Not-so-daily rambings about my life and my thoughts

Saturday, January 28, 2006


Even if we got paid a week early due to the Chinese New Year holiday, I feel lucky enough to have saved close to $400 US between the two paychecks. I'm not sure if it is only because we got paid about 8 days earlier than normal, or if I have stopped spending a lot of money on my morning coffee, but in any case I feel good I am able to send more money than usual home this month. Now, on what shall I spend it on?

  • My credit card bill?
  • My student loans?
  • Put it toward my month in Thailand around February 2007?

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Tough Decisions

I am lucky enough to recoup some of the money spent on the return flight of an open round trip ticket to Korea from Hong Kong. Now the question is, with whatever money amount I get, where should I go in May? I'm thinking of going home, but home for me can mean many different things:

  • Boston: Stay in a hostel and reacquaint myself with the old neighborhood.
  • Manchester NH: close to Boston, home to my grandparents and a long-time friend of mine.
  • Atlanta GA: where my dad is currently living. Kind of. Never been there, he's my immediate family, and I would like to think I could spend quality time with my dad and get to know him more as a person, work out some stuff maybe.
  • Southern California: where I have a good friend whom I would really like to see, the weather would be great, and it would be the shortest flight by like 10 hours of all of them.

By the way for those of you reading this, whose hometowns I mentioned here, of course I would ask first to stay with you before booking anything!

I'm just kind of worried about my dad, as I told him of my April plan via email maybe a week ago, and I have yet to hear from him at all. I mean wow -- the prodigal daughter expresses the wish that she wants to come home to her dad and what comes back sounds like the chirping of crickets.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

And Then Came Earl...

And then after watching the first episode of My Name Is Earl (again thank you LimeWire), I felt considerably better. Gotta love Jason Lee, even if he is portraying a doofy redneck who takes what Carson Daly has to say as gospel.

What Else Is New?

I can't quite put my finger on it, but I've been feeling a bit blue now. Maybe it has to do with feeling invisible to everyone half the time (I swear there are times when I feel like I must be a ghost and be the only one who doesn't know, but I haven't befriended any children who see dead people yet) maybe once again I'm stretching myself too far to accomodate everyone else, but I hope it goes away soon.

Friday, January 20, 2006


After months of trying, I finally managed to find a download of the first episode of the second season of Lost that worked. And all I have to say about it (never mind that no one is going to get spoiled here!) is that man, Jack's wig really looked awful.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

I Did It Anyway

So, I just dropped a large amount of money for a concert.

But I am going with some good friends and it should be a good show.

We're in Row L. L for Loser, you Left it too Late.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Paying $100 USA For Franz Ferdinand Tickets

Would you do it????

A) Is the Pope Catholic?/Does Eddie Vedder smoke pot?
B) I would but I better be in a spot where I can tell what the drummer's eye color is!
C) No, but I'd use most of that money to drink away the thought that I waited too damn long to buy a cheapish ticket in the first place!

Sunday, January 15, 2006


It's Sunday. My roommate is moving to Shenzhen tomorrow, I guess. We had a really big noght out last night where all her friends and some of a friend's friends went out and we just got trashed. I am feeling really rough right now and we promised each other we would clean up the house before she goes. I'm running on slow and cleaning the bathroom right now (I'm waiting for things to dry in there before I wash the floor) and she is wrapping up going around her social circle, telling her friends goodbye before she comes back to do the kitchen.

Ugh...last night. Had fun dancing and hanging out with my roommate's best friend whom I never really get to talk to much. Highlight from her: She told me last night she looks at one of our male teachers and all she can think of is Chicken Little.

Another good friend of mine got totally trashed so badly you could see it i his face. There was a Vacancy sign in his eyes even. He said a lot of trash last night, and even though I wasn't too badly offended (I knew he was drunk) I told his girlfriend he should apologize to me for the stupid things he said. And this morning, he did. It was a pretty funny voicemail; it was like you could hear the two working brain cells (all the others were still asleep) rub together to try to form a thought. Ouch. He told me later he was really hurting this morning, and I sure don't blame him.

Anyways that is it for me right now. I got to get back to work.

Friday, January 13, 2006

Things That I Hate...

  • I hate how I have to get up and work a full day tomorrow (Saturday).
  • I hate how I have no discipline with anything I really like.
  • I hate how my iPod's headphones may be broken and there is all this buzzing and scratching noises in my right ear whenever I play music.
  • I hate feeling disconnected from most everyone I am in contact with and wonder how much of that is my fault.
  • I hate how some people make me feel like an idiot everytime I open my mouth. I know what I mean, so why can't anyone else?
  • I hate how I can not find Matthew Sweet's Girlfriend CD anywhere.
  • I hate this feeling that I am never going to be in a worthwhile relationship with any guy. I know nothing can be said as an absolute, but this one just feels like it will be true, probably due to Points 4 and 5.
  • I hate how I never seem to get enough sleep, including (surprise surprise) tonight. (This is only due to late night web surfing and not any ponderings of my life and how the universe is playing it out.)

Monday, January 09, 2006

Fractured Record Review Take One

I am really happy right now. I got from my uncle about $150 Hong Kong as a Christmas present. I was thinking of what CD I wanted to buy, as I really could only buy one with that amount of money. It was a hard decision: Do I buy something I know and love, something comfortable, or do I try my luck and buy something that I may like, but I may not. Something that may be like the best thing I have heard in the longest time, or something that unfortunately leaves me cold, like going on a blind date with someone, quite honestly. (Hey, we all need to have our passions!)

But I found at a local store that they were (lucky for me) having a sale. And so, with that rationalization, I bought two CDs, both from The White Stripes. Both CDs I'd basically be taking a gamble on, because for me, there really is nothing worse when it comes to buying music than buying a CD you think is going to be the coolest thing ever, only to first be sitting there with an expectant grin on your face and then realize that nothing is grabbing you and then, have the tape or CD gather dust a couple weeks later. (Hello, The Church! Hello Simple Minds!)

I love the CDs. Really. I listen to it, and for some weird reason it reminds me of when I was 6 or 7, maybe younger, listening to my cousin Chuck play the drums. I don't know whether it's the same kind of music that backed him, or it's just something that they made out to sound very garagey, where the drums are right there in your face, and the cymbals are huge and sound like they are crashing right in your ears, but this is like one of the most exciting things I have listened to in ages, with the exception of maybe Franz Ferdinand's latest album. (But come to think of it, that too has an almost...organic quality to it as well. I know they are much more synthesizer-based and much more flash, but in a Blondie sort of way (without Deborah Harry of course), where it's a detached sort of sound, but almost very early 80s in its production I guess, in its feel.)

Anyways, the White Stripes.

I love this one song, "Well, It's True We Love One Another," and that is the coolest thing about buying a CD that you don't know much about. You get to pick and choose your own favorite songs, the songs that somehow mean something to you only, and not the ones that MTV or their record company tells you you have to like. (Though, I do have to say that if anyone ever bothered to ask me about my favorite Side One Track One Songs, and I bothered to think about it fully, and they bothered to listen, one of them would be "Seven Nation Army" in a heartbeat. I love the simplicity of that song and the build up of guitars and again, I am 5 years old watching my cousin crash his drumsticks into the cymbals. It's just an amazing song, and I can not believe there is not a single bass guitar in that song whatsoever. Amazing!)

Anyways, "Well, It's True We Love One Another."

It's one of the funniest thing I have heard in a while, and it's kind of countryish (dare I say that) and yeah, a bit cutesy, but I like the sense of humor to it, especially the part where the guest singer Holly, asks Meg if she thinks if Jack really loves her,and Meg sings "You know, I don't care cause Jack really bugs me!" I don't know, it's amusing to me cause it plays off on the whole "We're brother and sister but wait, not really" revelation that happened a couple years ago.

Anyways, I know I'm not making any sense. This is where I say like a 6 year old, this is my blog anyways, and what are you doing criticizing my own personal thoughts?

In short, I love this CD. It makes me happy. I feel like a grandma who likes something well past when everyone else does, but it's all right at the end.

So do yourself a favor and have a listen to Elephant.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Weird Dream Report Three

I've had dreams this weekend where I meet one of my students about 10 or 15 years down the line. He's only grown maybe about a foot and a half more, has exactly the same face and has some sort of beard-like thing stuck to his chin. (My subconscious is lazy and wants to do the Mr. Potato Head type thing, I guess.) I meet him in something that looks like the Getty Center in Malibu (complete with sunshine, courtyards and mini-pools and fountains) and he tells me he has joined a Christian-rock band. Um, OK. He also takes my hand when he sees me, like he is 5 years old all over again. Very sweet.

I also have a dream this morning where I start to re-hook up with a guy I dated. Though he doesn't even look like him, the mannerisms and the sense of self he has is there. I know it's him, even though he looks wildly different. (I do have to say that I really tried and I think he is a nice guy still today, but I never was physically attracted to him very much. He looked better in the dream I had, but don't they all. Heh.) Nothing really happens though. (Again.) But this time it's because he thinks his modem can record us. I know it sounds dumb, but again maybe instead of my brain thinking of some kind of conspiracy theory type thing, my brain didn't want to bother with creating a webcam.)

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Cute Kid Report

I got my hair dyed last night. Well, I shouldn't say I got it dyed, as I did it myself. It's now a dark red color, though on the Feria box it says "Pure Spice Power Light Intense Red." I'm happy with it, but today I found one of the girls who goes to my school is not.

She came up to me this morning, and I bent down to say hello, and she started playing with my hair. "Wow! Red!" she says.
"Do you like my new hair color, Sum Sum?" I ask her.
"No," she says.
Oh. Well.
"Do you like my old hair color, Sum Sum?"
"No," she says.
"What color would you like my hair then?"
"Purple!" she squeals.

Too cute.

Monday, January 02, 2006

Back To Hong Kong

I just got back last night and then stayed up until three in the morning doing something I swore would wait until my next vacation. I have all these CDs (well, only nine)of stuff I downloaded off Limewire. So I spent a good long time putting all of that onto my iPod. I'm not quite done yet; I want to know which albums these songs came off of, just to make it a bit more categorized.

All this was started after finding the Wizard of Oz on TV last night. God, I had forgotten how muvh I love that movie. I think sometimes older movies make me laugh cause they are so overwrought, so bad in their production, but this one was actually genuinely funny. I sat there with my roommate cracking up over the intended silliness of it all, the keeper of the Emerald City repeatedly telling them they had to read the then non-existent sign to enter, and then putting out the sign with a "Why didn't you say so?" when told there was no sign. the Munchkins, and the Cowardly Lion with his silly red bow on top of his head, singing "If IIIIIIIII were the king! Of the forrrrest!" and then "Courage!" I love the Cowardly Lion! Everytime I saw him I just cracked up like I must have when I first saw it at the age of...six? Eight? When I was really young for sure.

But being now in my 20s, I remarked to my roommate that fans of Pink Floyd had to be onto something, as they discovered a not quite perfectly synched viewing of the Wizard of Oz and playing The Dark Side of the Moon. I was having a hell of a time with the movie tired but sober, imagine what pot would have done to it. She told me "Yeah, that's why I said I wish I was till drunk earlier." Heh.

I also saw some of my DVDs I bought in Thailand. Fever Pitch is fine, Down With Love is fine. In Her Shoes sucks cause it won't play. I saw Dukes of Hazzard last night. It was OK. Certainly nothing special. I don't remember much too much about the original, but I think they dumbed down Bo and Luke Duke too much -- I don't think they were portrayed as stupid in the series at all. And Jessica Simpson (or OK, the writers of the movie) played Daisy Duke with just the one note of "Aren't I sexy?" which probably was much more understated in the TV series. But I won't worry too much about it. as it is only a movie made from a TV show, after all.

Oh also, today I took the nicest shower had in about a week and a half! It's good to be back!