Pulled In Many Directions

Not-so-daily rambings about my life and my thoughts

Monday, June 05, 2006

Ha ha ha!

So I'm nervous about driving when I get back to the States. But look at this!

Ha! It looks like all around me were bad drivers too. Maybe in a newer (safer) environment, I'll feel better. Or maybe I'll drag California down the list. Ha!

(By the way, I knew the answers for all the test questions they talk about in the article.)

Insomnia

Probably as a result of:

  • Sleeping until 230 p.m. today (Please remind me to never make that a habit.)
  • Stupidly having a Diet Coke at around 7 p.m. because I was thirsty.
  • Realizing that may not have been a smart idea, I boiled some tap water and now my stomach feels funny anyways.
  • A small part of me is worrying about rejection. It's become now that everytime I meet someone cool, and think hey I'd like to go out with him, it's like my loneliness goes under a magnifying glass. I guess I just come to realize that hell I am a bit lonely. Not stupidly lonely. Not desperately lonely, but lonely enough to fear rejection again. Meh! Meh, I say!

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Feeling Better

And now the lowlights from today!

  • Woke up at about 815 this morning after discovering the text message on my phone to get some water. Was feeling pretty rough. Took some Advil and then promptly went back to bed...
  • Where I then reawakened at about 230 p.m. Holy mother of God.
  • Used my pain after sucking down more water and Advil to go to McDonalds for takeaway
  • I had a double cheeseburger that tasted damn good.
  • Stumbled somehow onto this website that creates radio stations based on the kind of music I like and will eventually link me to like minded listeners (once I hit about 300 songs listened to, that is.) I'm already on a clip to maybe achieve that by Thursday. Ha. I am going through my library and trying to give it a sampling of what is on the ol' iPod. Mainly 80s stuff, 1990s alternative stuff, ska-like bands, maybe throw in bands like Rage Against The Machine for good measure. If you try it out, message me if you'd like to be my friend (awwww) on there. I'm always looking for new music.

A Really Good Night Out!

Highlights include:


  • Being told I had to spend a minimum of $128 at this really swank place where a good friend of mine had his birthday...and then managing to pay only for one of them. (Hey I did offer money, but at this time in the month -- where my MSN ID is "Come On Payday! -- if my money is no good there, then...OK.)
  • Having a yummy chocolate martini for the first time. (Which, yes, I did pay for.)
  • Drinking some really good peachy kind of wine.
  • Best bit of the night number one: where two of my friends and I serenaded the taxi driver with all the top hits from years past that we could think of. Bon Jovi. Pussycat Dolls. An ABBA medley. (I'm surprised he didn't try to literally drive us into the tunnel, and by that, I mean the tunnel walls!)
  • Then two of my friends and I (one of whom was not in the cabaret cab) went to The Flying Pan where I had a really good breakfast of eggs, fruit salad, beans and toast. It was yuuuuuummmmy!
  • Best bit of the night number two: I remet a guy at the Flying Pan I had first met a few weeks ago at a poetry reading (he never read and so did I) and I remember immediately liking him for how happy and friendly he seemed. He was still the very same way last night, but only better, as he gave me his phone number. Heh. I messaged him at close to 3 in the morning (soon after we left the place) asking him for his opinion on coffee (An idea Miss Peach and Mr. Martini heavily goaded me into I think!).
  • I just might call him later today and ask him to go out/hang out with me sometime. What the hell, eh?

So I'm feeling a bit rough right now, but this definitely was a night that needs to be remembered!

Friday, June 02, 2006

My New Favorite Band

My computer just ate my love note to my new favorite band, New Order.

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So I’ll try to make this quick!

I had a CD of theirs, called Substance for some time now, since the days I worked at Tower Records when I was in college. I hadn’t really played much of it though until I put it onto my iPod.

Every time I hear one of their songs, I am blown away by the fact that they are a direct descendant of the band Joy Division. I had a boyfriend who loved this band, Joy Division. I myself have only heard two of their songs, but have to say that Love Will Tear Us Apart is one of the most beautiful songs you could ever hope to hear and Atmosphere is this spare, stark, fragile song. Another thing of beauty.

And yet still, the band seemed so depressive, so bleak. It didn’t surprise me at all to learn that Ian Curtis took his own life, and that is how New Order was formed. (I know that might sound a bit mean, as Ian Curtis suffered from painful bouts of epilepsy and there are also reports that he subscribed to the “Better to Burn Out Quickly Than Fade Away” School of Rock, but would it really surprise anyone if they heard Zach de la Rocha was an angry kind of guy in person, or that Robert Smith of The Cure was depressed as well? Not really, I bet.)

The one thing that struck me about New Order were how upbeat their music sounded. (I wasn’t paying attention to the lyrics at the time.) “The Perfect Kiss,” “Bizarre Love Triangle” (which as an aside, I always imagined was about a guy who loves a girl who is in love with herself!), and which is now my most favorite song, the one I will (at this moment, anyways) constantly choose to play over and over, “Regret.”

Nick Hornby has said that people choose their favorite songs because it is one that the brain finds interesting and tries to figure out. With “Regret,” I know there is this one distinct point in the song where it hooks me in, right after the guitar (and that too, is a pretty strong hook) and the drums is where the synthesizer comes in, and I just find it so uplifting. Humor me and download (or buy the song, whatever!) and tell me you’re not almost immediately reeled in. Find “Love Will Tear Us Apart” too, while you’re at it.

If you are interested in reading the lyrics to my new favorite song (and why not?) then click here to find them. I will indulge myself and post the two bits of lyrics I absolutely love:

I would like a place I could call my own
Have a conversation on the telephone
Wake up every day that would be a start
I would not complain of my wounded heart

I was upset you see
Almost all the time
You used to be a stranger
Now you are mine

Their new song “Waiting For The Siren’s Call” (new to me, I’ve only just started seeing the video on Hong Kong TV!) also sounds pretty good. How's the new album? Have you ever seen them in concert? Are their side bands (Revenge, Monaco, Electronic) any good? What other songs or albums by New Order should I look into?

Thursday, June 01, 2006

The Return of Absolutely Fabulous...But Broke!

Can you imagine how far gone I'd be if I were still on my Pacific Coffee cup a day thing?

So I've been eating pasta for dinner for the past two days. Not so bad. Payday is Monday. I might have to go to the store tomorrow and buy some bread for some beans on toast action for dinner...but if I do that, why don't I just buy some cans of tuna anyways and make myself something I'm more likely to eat?

And then there is always soup.

I dreamed up a shopping list during the afternoon when I had nothing to do. Eighteen items just waiting to be bought. I'm trying to eat healthier. (Not sure how the raspberry jam or Barbeque Shapes I want will fit in there.) I want to get some miso soup. I wish I knew more about how to cook for one person...would love to have the ambition to create salads and vegetable dishes and chicken dishes without worrying it'll turn to compost before I can finish all that I made.